Monday, February 15, 2010

The Best Part of Waking Up

is the chemicals you put in your body.

Alcohol, tobacco, caffine, and good ol THC. These are all wonderful things aren't they. I have about a cup of coffee or two a day. Can I go without it? Not too well, but I'm gonna be quittin here pretty soon. I've scheduled for myself a steady and progressive abstinence from these fine
chemicals in the beginning months of 2010 and through out the duration of the year. In 2011 I will allow my self to partake once again, but in a much more moderate way. I'm tired of being dependant on these things for my ups and downs. I been done with the weed for about two months now and am happy without it. When I was smokin I was pretty out of control with it. Some people are good with moderation, but anytime I had a little bag of it in my possession it seemed I had to smoke every chance I got. I couldn't save it up for another time. When 2011 comes I think I'll keep it to one day of each month. That will be much better for me. As for alcohol, I will quit entirely although I never really had any addiction to that. I may allow myself a drink once in a blue moon but my status among my friends will be that of the tea tottler. Tobacco I'll be quitting entirely. Caffine. Um. I'm not sure. Maybe once a week. I've yet to decide that one for sure. I don't think I can make the proper call for that until I'm off it. But at the current time I have, like I said, about a cup or so a day. In fact I'm drinkin a large iced coffee right now, and it's SOOO good.

There comes a time in a man's life when he needs to decide what sort of person he wants to be and just fuckin do it. I can't live with myself if I am a slave to my every vice. Now that I got a good woman who showers her affections on me without hesitation and makes every effort to show me real love and experience this world beside me, I can be strong and do this. She is the best part of waking up, and I will be strong for her and for myself.